Wednesday, December 15, 2010

i'd first learnt how to become invisible from books, i have a large selection of occult and esoteric literature hidden away in a secret room. the problem was that without a teacher it was actually hard to work out some of the instructions. most of the books on the subject were written around the 18th century when invisibility was a fad sweeping through the nations. unfortunately it died out superseded by something equally audacious no doubt.
i spent 6 months practicing the instructions in the book, there were a few diagrams but mostly it was mental exercises and disciplines one had to follow, the symbolic patterns needed to be learnt and stored within ones aura, and there was plenty of practical stuff to consider. the biggest being how do i come back to visitability. however future anxiety was not going to stop me learning.
then one day i came across a small charm, an amulet. it was in a charing cross book shop on a recent trip to london, hidden away under the counter, the assistant saw me looking at a 16th century text on invisibility and thought the amulet would persuade me to buy it. i immediately purchased both.
back home i inspected the amulet, i had recognised that it was pictured in most of my books pertaining to invisibility. it was orb shaped and in scripted with the sanskrit words, अदृष्ट adrshta which translates as invisible or unseen. however it wasn't a matter of just wearing it, i had various preparations and rituals to perform, it would take about 7 weeks of purification and meditation, including the primarily ceremony.
the amulet required various preparatory treatments as well so i immediately got to work. creating a magickal instrument is a serious buisness and requires a certain alchemical transmutation of intention into body fluid, one can't fuck this up at all. death could result or something worse. i had watched many peers go mad, some were much more experienced practitioners and more intelligent than i but they all had something i didn't which worked against them. ego. there was a direct relationship to the dissolution of the ego and the dissolution of the physical form, ergo i was crossing a threshold few had crossed.
preparations and rituals aside i needed to wait for the right moment to wear the amulet, and it so happened that as neptune jupiter and venus alighned i conducted my rite and slipped it over my neck.
everything else remained the same, except for me, i was no longer there, part of the scenery, no reflection, no shadow, i was invisible.
but in order to become visible i needed to do the opposite, inverse my ego into something larger, so i hung out in girls change rooms, listened in on conversations, took cocaine and spoke rubbish, went on shop lifting sprees and generally caused mayhem in a bewildered community, gradually becoming more visible but the side effect was a short stint in jail and a hefty fine.
i gave up with magic and took a course in upholstery, i became a christian and rejected invisibility as an evil pursuit, a tool from the adversary, the beast, i burnt all my books and buried the talisman, i renounced my past and married a girl from idaho.

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