no sleep in two days but miss cupcake and i are travelling into unusual areas of sleep depravation, we are perfectly matched, linked in as our brains operating at quantum level in perfect synch, soon we will not need to talk, all communication will be instant, our minds merged. yes this was the future i saw 10 years ago, it's some what askew i didn't think she would be having another mans baby, but what the hell, the rest is exactly how i saw it.
a few blogs ago i wrote that when i meet a woman and a relationship starts i usually have visions about the future, i can perceive future events, get a sense of quality and often i am so excited and enthusiastic i wanna jump in and get there. but obviously this is a dangerous thing to do because i can't expect my partners to know our futures. it's something of a curse but what can i do. at least it helps me extract myself from relationships i know there is no future.
its what i want. a future but try selling that to a girl and they don't wanna know. so i keep it all inside as best i can and watch it all unravel.
anyways the last few days with miss cupcake have been the future i saw many years ago when we were actually together but she was young and somewhat nuts, not interested in futures with me.
time is a strange thing, especially when you hack it, invoke the past to return and iron out the wrinkles.
we do everything together, we shop, eat, swim, read, play scrabble, watch dvds, movies, talk about everything from my crazy theories to her interesting observations about people, and we laugh a hell of a lot more than i recall us laughing first time around and slowly i think she's getting me, but it's probably gonna take another decade or two. i'm hoping that one day she will meet my other friends, evan, leanne, hp, nico, agent stone, steve, yeah maybe then she will see the wide canvas on which i have painted my strange life. who knows, all i know is tomorrow i will be reading to her bump.