Monday, November 15, 2010

the biggest challenge i face on a personal level is one of expectation, here i am awash with psychic ability and an highly attuned intuition, super consciousness or stupid consciousness, it's always an extreme. as i navigate the highways of potentiality with women i usually get a series of visions. this occurs in some sort of semi flash forwards image's move into my mind, often feelings and situations, i can see them as though i'm living them and they have a certain reality that i dare not dismiss.
i see myself with this person, we are happy and the future appears to be very good for both of us, i get a general impression that things work out and i use this to influence my present. sometimes i pass strangers on the streets and get a similar vibe, it's a time line, a possibility, maybe in some other reality in the multiverse i talk to that person and start some sort of relationship, maybe we had one in the past or the future, maybe the connection between us will repeat itself. i trust these feelings yet i am always defeated by them.
for a long time i though other people, my partners would share this or at least understand i have this gift, but they can't, how can they?
then there's the problem of expectation which is fired for me, i had the vision, i'm excited and enthusiastic, i play my cards, force it a little, and here is where it starts to fail. how can one enforce ones reality on another. it happens all the time in the world actually but love is a mysterious force and requires a few special mantras.
so i have learnt how to do this, but it still frustrates me a lot.

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