okay, i'm on a loosing streak, not the first time, i'm receiving my karmic debits, for my bad attitudes, my strange sexual peccadilloes, a love for mind expansion and cosmic interfering, an addiction to internet porn and possibly speeding while driving, an inability to conceede authority, a lack of compassion to the ignorant and a straying from the buddist truth of nature, enlightenment, what is it good for?
the solution lies in creativity, giving the cosmic pranksters some kind of offering, via sacrificial process, sexual tantra or some kind of energy transference.
good deeds are for sophomores.
the biggest challenge is my new ego, which i've become very fond off, it's a harder, older, a slightly bitter one but i wear it well, cranky and some what anti social, don't suffer fools, socialists or hippies very well, yes i have a fondness for that punk attitude, the one that pushes all the buttons, the sneerer of moronic byronic bay types, give me a girl with a dragon tattoo and we will hack the universe together. the meek can get fucked.
so thus begins my program, three months of disipline. see you on the other side.