Saturday, May 22, 2010

jake and i part company for the moment, he's off to explore the world and conquer, i'm setting off home, to relax and find peace. it's the saddest feeling, the separation and distance but i maintained a certain stoicism and kept positive, after all he is doing exactly what i did and my father. however for me it is a poignant moment, after all he is the reason i lived in australia for the last 22 years, there were a few tears but generally it was good, healthy and we managed to say the things we needed to.
someone once said to me love is when you would die for someone, i guess there's an element of truth in that, i feel like that sometimes, that i would give everything to keep jake going, i guess mothers are in tune with this to but you don't hear about fathers much, they keep it under their hats i guess.
it's a strange moment, i'm on the way out, jake's on the way in, his star is rising, mine is falling, yeah i feel it in the future, burning bright, i just hope i get to see it before mine fades out completely.

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